Awareness

Just a glimpse of connection

Which happens with some kind of... awareness. It feels like I'm about to find some higher meaning, some deeply truth within myself - and the universe itself.

Why does it have to be so shortly? So breef? Why does it happen when sharing it with another person?

I wish it could last longer. Or even if I could understand it better, maybe I would be able to do it more often, growing this behavior towards... a kind of awareness more conscious, more based on a willing than a calling 

But...

Is it possible? This feeling of accepting not being in control, allowing myself to feel some external form of "flow"? Is it really "external"?

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