Priorities
"If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself, but to your estimate of it; and this you have the power to revoke at any moment." I used to read this pretty often. So did my coordinator, at that time. It served as a painful yet necessary reminder. Such as: "pain is mandatory, suffering is a choice". The tiny little moment of choice, those infinite moments of daily life bind together in a one-way strong flux, growing stronger as each choise is made... The snowball of daily priorities. Regardless it assemble with my truthful inner purposes. So I end up chosing paths that I regret taking. I found myself (again) at places I didn't want to be anymore. Something inside of me has chosen this direction and it's not the part that takes care of me, or the parts that protect me, help me and love my... "self". Myself. I haven't acted kindly at myself. I'm confused. I want to ask for help, but I don't know how...