Garden

Tidying up the inner garden.

The possibility of daily self-discovery is one of the most magical ability of all, practice it.


09.03.23

After playing it, it was almost like a death penalty: apparently nothing would happen afterwards.

I'm "out of rhythm" and this affects my course of actions / 'cause it's easier to fall.

So, if my my body is not healthy, how could my mind be?

And, the resistance: willingly wanting to change myself creates a big amount of opposite directions inside of me, generating those strong emotions which can affect my judgement, as well as my self-perception and ability to wisely choose the next chain of actions.


I shall get organized.


28.03.23

By looking at my "mistakes" (as a large and diverse amount of actions, this word may evoke a "bad" meaning or representing something inherently wrong somehow, but that's not the ideia) I can find spots of clutter within me. (or "myself?").

By looking at the clutter (such as observing my feelings and actions and trying to talk to myself) changes start to happen.

By trying to understand the inner sources of reactions throughout my day I practice my self-observation and end up lightning  the "possible chain of actions" right ahead of me. 

By having more options to look at, by perceiving new details and being able to visualize the possible outcomes it's like a step by step of choosing differently. Picking new paths and understanding its outcomes, and remembering I can choose a different one next time, if I pay attention to it, and having other outcomes.

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