Exercion

 At times, it feels as if I can perceive the internal mazes of other people from a bird's eye view. 

It’s brief. 

And there are moments when I can observe patterns
within those mazes – the paths; the velocity;
the chain of events influenced by choices,
by meeting people, by going to places…

The puzzle of daily choices modeling possible paths ahead. There could be many different perspectives to imagine the meanins of this maze -

But my focus today is on crises.

Chaotic and decisive periods.

 
Specifically related to consciousness
(or do I say "self-awareness"?) and choices.

Here we go.

There's some kind of "pressure" during stressful moments, which somehow change the way we respond to certain stimuli.

We are constantly interacting and modeling ourselves to environmental patterns, and I have a guess about how attention and self-knowledge may affect directly on our intentional responce - giving enough time for our internal processing to observe and generate an according response.

There are climacteric life point (which may be days, weeks, even months). Those points are transformed when one realizes this moment as it is - challenge, learning, change.

Realizing it alters your possible respondings. Becoming aware changes how we walk our path.

When looking at the maze, it's as if the person is beginning to realize the trajectory that had been walked – and in that moment, a moment of being dazzled by a newfound self-awareness, the patterns of the maze begin to be intentionally altered. 

The moments when those turning points are being observed by the one in the maze there are many different directions possible – which were previously unknown. And there’s one path I feel relieved and happy when it’s recognized and chosen by people: getting a loving, disciplined direction towards self-awareness.

And the more conscious one gets, the bigger are the chances of that critical moment to turn it into a profound and life-changing crossroad, where the places one gets in the maze are more coherent to one’s "intention" (I wanted to say “essence” actually… But… I miss the vocabulary).

The image in my mind is the walls in the maze transforming into paths, where instead of “going down” people begin to "go up” the metaphorical ladder of life, taking new paths, costing considerable exertion to do so.

What does it take for a person to realize, accept and choose the endeavor of persuing self-awareness?

I wish I could know, so I could do it myself. And... Who knows: maybe even helping others.

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What are the shapes created by my current self? 

What am I exerting myself for?

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Climacteric. A major turning point or critical stage.

Exercion. The use of a lot of mental or physical effort.

Endeavor. Serious determined effort.